hello? =)

MR AND MRS AND MS. i hate ppl criticize behind of me. if you want, shoo in front of me lah. don *poppe poppe poppe* and just gossiping thr. i think im really mature to tolerate this kind of friendship from now onwards. *applause* bwahahaha... once agn. im really an open-handed person lah..believe me xD it's up to you for making me angry or embarrass or frustrated.... im not gonna have a conflict with you. am now a BIG BIG girl. *whispering* bluek~! xP

no trust in my life =D

謝謝你的美好

 
因為我們知道 這天終究會來到
所以不計較 只要彼此可以過得更好
當初愛的是你 當我哭時也是你
在我的身邊 讓我嘗到有被愛的感覺

謝謝你的美好 我絕對不會忘掉
雖然那滋味 慢慢地 慢慢地 淡掉
今晚我們見面 算不算最後一遍
答應自己不流眼淚

我們在散步 我們在殘酷 心裡早預估
誰要說出口 誰要當兇手 你還是我
我們的全部 所有的全部 只要再一步
就能夠解脫 就能夠擁有 得到自由

請你不要 cry like this is a surprise
哭出來 only make things 更難捱
我的愛 並沒有改 是時間作怪
Girl you know that,right？

嘿 你把你眼淚擦乾
嘿 你把你腳停下來
one more step
that's all that we have left

謝謝你的美好 我絕對不會忘掉
雖然那滋味 慢慢地 慢慢地 淡掉
今晚我們見面 算不算最後一遍
答應自己不流眼淚

我們在散步 我們在殘酷 心裡早預估
誰要說出口 誰要當兇手 你還是我
我們的全部 所有的全部 只要再一步
就能夠解脫 就能夠擁有 得到自由

oh damn! ^.^

1st!!! an announcement here!! just the thing i wrote before. still rmb what? that most nervous event i've attended. the results post on the board today~!!! hooray, we got in to the final round successfully!!!! seems like other societies celebrate happily. but why i don even have any feeling? huh...hmm...wondering!! maybe everyone thought and predicted that we're bad and wont get in to the final round. so just, congrats to all my partners lah.. :)

2nd!!! foolish day for me today! sucks life nowadays -.- i donno who am i to you? brother? sister? friends? or just a stranger? ah~!! everytime i said i wanna give up but everytime i lose myself. oh fcuk! what am i doing? you said you dislike i rude, i try chg my attitude. but you're the one who always made me feel liked ' oh damn shit! '....

just SORRY lah... donno why? just feel like wanna apologize to someone but donno who.

stupid girl jotted.

weekend? :)

ehy ehy~! today's my buddy friend, EUNICE birthday!!! sweet 16th lah... xD hope she will happy all the way with her boy boy JOSAIAH**

 

uh-uh! what's going on? i really do care you much dear. don make me upset lah... should i accept your apologize?? mmm-hmm...*considering. im fear that you'll re-do your mistake agn, and i'll angry agn. what for i spend my anger on you? worth it or not? terrible lah me >< so let me think over whether should i forgive you. 

suddenly miss my popo so damn much :(( i need your advise on everything. uh-huh~ how are you there? rest in peace huh! :))

lost girl jotted.

words in my heart

i must admit that im open-handedness enough in every situation. not perasan* lah...  am i too patient and open-minded on everythings made you misunderstanding that you can do whatever you want? am so sry. just the thing i saw today, made me angry you completely and maybe should say HATE? wth -.- don you think twice before you did that brainless thingy? oh damn. yes. you don have a brain. so sorry my dear... don even ask me to forgive you. as when the phrase ' I HAVE TOTALLY GIVE UP ON YOU ' pop out from my mouth, you're definitely dead. just saw a photo extremely suits to describe the situation of me and you. see that>>>

 

you guess what? the pig is you and im angry behind you. don act innocent in front of me. im just truly mad right now. stand faraway from me!!!!!!!!!!!!! stupid dumb dumb. don simply abuse my patience. everyone has different limits. and you're not deserve to use all. and now, im gonna think about isit worth to have a 'blast' with you......

abandoned girl jotted.

confused @,@

let's see the msg. this is what im confusing for some hours.
>>>> my lil sis. xiao mei mei~ sry lah weih. sry for being so moody and rude? and no chatting with you few days. im having a truly bad emotion this few days. i admit that im not strong enough to manage myself. some more, be honest with you. just wanted you to pay attention on me. me too donno why la. but so sry la, i know im capricious. can you forgive me? smile :) <<<<
aduh -.- you're the one made me angry, some more want me to forgive you. this is not the first time lah...everytime i need to apologize first. so now is your turn to feel this bad feeling. let me think about it lah... need to discuss with my friend too. hng~ xP goodbye dear 'da gor gor'~ sucks!!

dazed girl jotted.

ah? =O

#1 : sucks lah you... yer~ what face is that oh? :/ everytime you scold me when im emo-ing. but why cant i just 'say' when ur being that way? shit lah...no comment dy. maybe only soft and hard can mix together? we're hard person, go find the third person to console you lah. don come here directly. i've give up forever... maybe i'll felt like makan cuka when 'something' happened? ahha...just wait for it. i know that it'll comin' soon. be patient everyone. let's see isit my prediction will happen soon?... no one knows the answer. lalalala... =) just forget about it.

# 2 : ehh..MR. what the hell you bully my sisters? like her like her lah.. no need to shout her for being wrong with his boyfriend just because the one is not YOU. damn shit. please lah... go in front the mirror and look at your shitty face. you lose all the things compared with the boy. shoo...-.- especially he knows what's respect, but you? din you learn p.moral before huh? opps. so sorry i ter-scold you. ahha xD it's just for fun. take it for granted lah... xP

mad girl jotted.

what a stupid day -.-

oh shit -.- i've no comment or should be said 'speechless' for this day stupid i've had. you're really the one can master my emotion well. just one sentence, my mood in the morning from happy turn 'up' to desperate in the afternooon immediately. shitty!! ah. thks god im not same class with you, if not...you'll see my tears and vulgar words came out from my mouth non-stop. im so sorry for this temporarily rude attitude. duh -.- allow me to scold now please... but, i think it's better scold in front of the fella?! not a bad choice duh.... bullshit!! >< just a 180 degree change on my mood today. YOU listen now. i know you felt guilty now. but please lah...don act innocent. it's a super duper BIG deal for me... maybe it takes few days for me to forget about it?.. just wait lah dumb!

ehy. and today was a weird day for everyone too. donno why lah. our class included students and teachers used to shout or slightly louder than usual day. lol xD just keep frightening me lah.. especially the Mr. Ang Ba Ba, what parse the meaning of the word lah..., explain what is 'interjections'! omg. made me jump up from the chair. embarrassed me @.@

today, we went bio lab agn. we just learned about insects body and so others. keep on shouting lah those girls. ahha. luckily i din shout today, if not gonna get by teacher. xD fun lah...
but no mood to smile? lol xD

urm...not this picture of course. just simply take one last time at bio lab too. :) yippee!! damn looked childish in this pic. ><

emotional girl jotted.

sweet / sweat ==' dream =D

ah ah...i dreamed my Sir, teacher Wan Mei and YanJun Low. lol...speechless lo. i dreamed that we're playing a game and our body were wet. then i go chit-chat with they three, ridiculous lah. but very sudden, i got nose bleeding, and my Sir helped me. that one who always make me scared of him suddenly become so kind. ahha. frighten me >< you know what, he's fierce normally and he's strongly against playing games out of practicing. and mr. YanJun Low accompany me to wash. and so bla bla bla... very long lah this nonsensical dream. but its quite interesting, i just summarized it. haha... someone says ' the dream is just the dream. that's always happen opposite with the dream'. oh no! means what? urm...meant that i dreamed that the three guys are good, so isit in the real time they're bad? haha...not sure?! lalala... ><

And...... small announcement here, me! Nicole Kok, gonna shift to my new house at kajang on 29/8. uh-huh. excited but feel something like reluctant? donno lah...just not so damn happy lah... gonna miss my ampang peeps lah!! i can sure that ampang peeps especially bukit indah's brothers sisters are the best!! ILY!! <3

today!! imma a PISTACHIOS. lalala...donno why? maybe im too desperate? just feel like just showing my smile to everyone is the best make up in upset situation? uh-huh. but just happy lah... coz i think he's gonna left me out and give up on me. so thks my dear. you're doing to right way. maybe im too stubborn on you. so yeah, my brother, i've let go you lah...so you have your happy day ever since now?

pistachios jotted.

owh... happy case =/

when people expect you to fail, prove them wrong.

hello, guess what, i'm done with my packin' clothes and books and rubbish, so now my room is clean and looked new. uh! damn happy lah. gonna shift to my new hse at kajang, damn far, next week onwards. hmm..not so fast to stay thr, just to fix in all those furniture first lah. if not, gonna have a blast on it, mess it up agn.

hmm...just went for injection agn. everything is going on well. luckily. so, isit settled? maybe yes? ehy, just let it be lah... tired for turning around this problem. needa start my works already, seem like few weeks din concentrate on my schl stuff. mom said, no improvement no requirements. thus, i needa work hard on every schl stuff to show that, im really put in my effort lah. maybe this not a suitable way for study girl, but if thr's no condition or an aim for me, i don have any propulsion to study or achieve my goal. do what you can Nicole Kok although he might not accompany you on the way, but prove to him. show that he'll felt regret when he's not concerning you or what so ever... i've no comment on him already. that's all for him. buh-bye dude.

so yeah, today he is the birthday boy

Shaun Loi Kai Fung

another name for him is shaun the sheep.

uh-huh, donno why.

his fren make it for him.

hope he'll happy always la.

p/s: quite a good looking shaun~ =P

emotional girl jotted.

im havin' a very bad mood today =(

uh...let's talk something out of this topic 1st. the competition of the society's presentation has been over. and it done with a word 'fail'... really a failure case for my life. what a bad experience.. maybe or we'll not even get in the final round. and please for those juniors don learn from me. learn from jianjiang is better lah.. today's performance just like uh wtf -.- 1st is the mic problem, uhmmm.... correction, is my problem. 2nd, the light effect.. not our fault. and more more and more... goodness sake. just felt like wanna cry but.. uh-huh. if i cry, everybody will say that i just wanna take others concentration. thus, i just swallow my tears back to my throat.
another thing is, i just went to..... uh-huh. not convenient to say here. but just awesome for my friends but not others please. really wanna bang my head and cut off my ears lah...

let's say why am i in a bad mood. 1st, of course the failure case. don feel like wanna recall back. stop running in my mind huh~ hmph...tsk tsk. YOU again. you're the one who can master my emotion well and make it worst too. once you gave the warm feeling to me. it makes me touched for days....but on the other hand, when you treat me as a stranger or cool than a stranger, .... the bloody shit feeling came back. everyone said or told me, 'yeah girl, you got like him lah'. i'll answer them, ' ehy, nope. excuse me, impossible lah. im just his substitute... :'( '... started to cry.. uh! damn! why can you treat the one or more than that better... *wondering* i just need a friend that can share his happy or sad things to me. especially you. coz' you're the one i care the most. i donno what am i to you. but you've took a part of my heart already. although i clearly know that im not in love with you. but... ah! just a weird feeling to you lah.. my god. so should i give up on concerning you? you always force me on facing problem, share my emo, and what so ever. i did many things to you, just like a brainless girl waiting for a impossible guy. uh...wth im doin' nw. so like questioning myself : is this all i've been waiting for?

substitute girl jotted.

nervous time =S

a special sign of me is : nervous girl and face red girl =S
tmrw is the most nervous time for me in 2011 perhaps.
omg! nervous than confessing to a boy...goodness. i fear that i'll stage fright ltr.
uh.... can i gv up...uhmm....maybe not!!
and not MAYBE!!! i must do it!!!
just like what NIKE said : just do it :)
imma Nicole Kok Hui Ting!
do what i can!!!
imma the best...calm down... :(
uh..talk to my hand lah the best~
i cant slow down my heart beat now and so ever.
it'll last to the end of the competition. must get in to the final round as well.
my dear...i need your support now!
no matter how many words you send. i'll appreciate it and maybe calm down with it?
uh-huh~ im damn fcuking freaking bombastic bloody crazy and nervous now.
just like wtf -.- nothing much to say!!! and please pray for me and my team.
hope we'll done successfully tmrw!!! thks god!!! :)))

nervous girl jotted.

sports days end up with a =)

this year's sports days was the most quiet experience.
donno why. everyone don have the mood.
but for me, this is the 1st time i used to scream for every athletes in my S1S1.
especially for pei shan, tze yeong (the buddha) and shaun.
everyone did their best in the competition.
but shaun cried today. becoz he fell and lost the game.
and this time i felt that S1S1 is not a "cold" class.
i saw the co-operate and everyone gave him a very deep hugs.
we are always the best team S1S1.

S1S1.
one for all. all for one.
高一理一  毛！
高一理一  棒！
dream high. aim high. fly high.
YEAH!!!!

although there's not much metal in our class.
but they're always the champion in S1S1.
we love you, science one. YAY!!!

kiddo jotted.

mature vs childish

perhaps. childish face with mature mind is cute :)
but i hate mature face with childish mind the most most most!!!
YOU
gave some bullshit opinion to me and it's useless useless and useless!
you know what. when i think you can be a good talker or brilliant conversationalist, but you disappointed me.
you gave me bullshit nvm.
but no use for telling everyone.
telling me that ur not purposely.
nonsense~ the only thing is i din show my anger and vulgar words to you.
coz i think that it's useless and why i need to spend this stupid spirit and time on you.
im really a open-handed person and please don bully me on this.

my dear, ur now in my black list.
am now wary to talk to you...
before that, im really have faith in you.
let see, i need to chg my mind.
so yeah, i've lost a friend...

brainless fella jotted.

it's just a yes or no question~

are you really a good friend?
are you really a best buddy?

wondering...
sometimes, the answer flash out in my mind is : DEFINITELY NO!!!
why? i donno.
maybe just because this is the only feeling you gave me.
i hate the stupid feeling surrounding me.
you're worst sometimes. coz you're despicable~
that's all my dear.
im not gonna say anything more.
just let it be.... it'll turns better sometimes...

stupid fella jotted.